07.18.08
too late
you ask to join me
I resist
thinking the consequences only halfway, I say okay
you stroke
you kiss
I resist
No! my heart pounds
No! my mind speaks
my body whispers, yes
this is what I’ve wanted all along
touch me
see me
make me real
but touch
this touch
this touch with motives other than pure
is not what I want
maybe what I wanted for so long
asked for
begged for
cried for
worked for
now I stand guard
knowing it was a mistake
to let desire run free
I want to be more than your body desires.
desire
was it a mistake letting desire run free
was it physical or did you want to make love to me
should I have kept my distance
should I have stayed cold
my heart aches
will you love me
can you love me
will I let you
can I
I shouted
sang
danced
painted
screamed
cried
my love for you
your silence rang forever
your doubt dampened my flame
and now you want me to dance again
I’m tired
so tired, I say
Again! Again!
you pray
swearing this time you’ll
see
hear
feel
smell
taste
believe
me.
my love.
my heart.
my devotion.
but I’m so tired
I weakly say
